Fussing Bazaar

2010-06-14T16:34:00.001+08:00

Now i know when a heart breaks it don't break even.

2010-06-13T01:27:00.004+08:00

天凉了, 雨下了, 你走了清楚了我爱的遗失了. 落叶飘在湖面上睡着了. 想要放,放不掉, 泪在飘你看不到. 我假装过去不重要却发现自己办不到. 说了再见才发现再也见不到我不能就这样失去你的微笑口红待在桌脚而你我找不到若角色对调你说好不好说了再见才发现再也见不到能不能就这样忍着痛泪不掉说好陪我到老永恒往哪里找再次拥抱一分一秒都好你的笑你的好脑海里一直在绕我的手忘不了你手的温度心碎了一地捡不回从前的心跳身陷过去我无力逃跑说再见才发现再也见不到能不能就这样忍着痛泪不掉说好陪我到老永恒往哪里找再次拥抱一分一秒都好

so sudden. i lost my pride and i lose everything. haa, because i dont deserve good. likewise, a slient man can get so hurt that he cried, A bruised man, can shout it out that the pain is killing him. A wicked man, can only have a wicked heart. A good man, can have a kind soul. But how about a vulnerable man? tell me. i believe he could only crided it ou loud when its hurt and deserve nothing but himself.

smile

2010-06-12T04:16:00.003+08:00

it has been a long time i have watch movie midnight and i realize that a movie contains joy and sorrow, definitely at certain point there is other effects. above all this i can only turn in and conclude that this is life. A life with joy. A life filled with sorrow. When life hits you down, you have a choice to stand up and fight back.

well, i couldn't sleep because i couldn't and not because of the movie the nightmare on the elm street. if you have watched it.

i am a defect. i am a loser. i am a heart-breaker. i am a shit. if only it is not so sudden that knocks me down, i will learn to love myself. Only a confident man wins hence the weakest always lose.i thought i had been a good man. but thinking with the eyes is just cheating ourself for what we see on and believe on, matter most is in your heart.

be grateful for what i have, be sinful for what i lost

like i always said, when life throws you lemon, make lemonade. when life throws you durian, dough but if life throws you a nuclear, tell me what should you do?

:)

2010-05-20T23:02:00.002+08:00

1 more hour. Chapter 6 will begin.

well, Today was quite an emotional day for me. :)

maybe i just aint good enough for sport. haa. "Head up uh tommy?". im wondering if i ask too much from myself or am i too bossy or im fucked up. I should use this time for injuries to recover.

I tried my best. im just not up to standard and i should be drawn out in the competition. AND IS COMPETITIONSSSSSS...

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Today im so down, baby encourage me and well as usual i felt better. Tonight, just wanna tell her that, i will water the seed and be patience when the storm come and thunder roar!(refering to her) HeheXD just for some laughter okay, dont angry baby :)

Tonight, i wish i can be a superman. A man that can do almost anything but i think again even a superhero have it weaknesses. Spider-man can run out of web. Superman scare of krytonite. Ironman has a no heart but function with a thingy of life source. Batman, can be seen in the day light. HAHA thats cold.

If only im a superman

:)

2010-05-19T23:26:00.003+08:00

it's coming to a special day that memories have planted for 6 months. Too very long enough. It doesn't matter how feel we go or went before. The important is that you have to get back when the love is first felt. :) thats when it will benefit the relationship.

It not only take patient, understanding and trust in a relationship. What matter most is effort yet at the end of the day. Love matters. :D

Love you.

LOVE my family and friends too. i miss the night with friends go out chill. :DD

as i did when in love with you

2010-05-16T00:57:00.003+08:00

People come people go, life may get bored and down at times and sometimes it gets better. Life must still go on :)

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Recently, i miss my girl a lot. We are busy, i have my commitment and she does have her too. Some more, we both felt the same like she/he lose the feeling toward our relationship. Well, deep in my heart i know i didn't. I asked myself, i am not good enough or some other factors. Be frank, i love her even more as before. I never want her to think too over or assume thing to work out a bad way because i wanna make sure she stay healthy and safe under my hand within my limit.

Looking bad now, 6months coming up. Many things we have gone through but it ain't enough yet we still need more communication, in order for us to work things out together.

Whatever happened between us when the time come, i can only express it out here not because i was timid which is because i never wanna lose her. She's been good to me and take care of me. trying for the better.

keep you safe is my responsible and caring you is my love. :)

Yet if one day im gonna lose her, i will let her go and at the end of the day i can only be blamed that i ain't good enough for a woman. i don't open for that day

Mutual Repect, communication. i need it all because it will benefit in our relationship.

Sometimes love can be complicated. some times its fun loving. yet sometime it blissful.

Baby i just wanna tell you, i do cherish you and care about you. Coming to our 6 months already not very long too but yet its a good one. the best!

I LOVE YOU, as im afraid of losing u

When i look at you

2010-05-14T18:11:00.002+08:00

Everybody needs inspiration, Everybody needs a song sound as beautiful as a melody yet when the nights seem so long which may lead to a thought that there is no guarantee that this life is easy. So when my world is falling apart, when there is no light to break up the dark and that's when I look at you. :)

When the waves are flooding the shore and I can't find my way home anymore thats when I look at you I see forgiveness, I see the truth and i knew you love me for who I am like the stars holding on the moon just right there on the skies where they belong and I know
I'm not alone

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that cover me
All I need every breath that I breathe
Don't you know you're beautiful

to sustain

2010-03-21T21:01:00.001+08:00

I realized that it has a long time since i last blogged. Everything was going alright for me so simple and i was happy with it because i meet someone who given her love and effort. i am cherishing every detailed moment with you

Know what readers, sustaining a relationship is definitely hard-task. Quarrels, fights and mistaken was the factors that affecting the relationship. Yes it is, Yet have you wonder how it happen, why it happen, when it happen. Many know, man has their own greed. Everyone does.

Today, is the 4th month been with her. i am glad to have her with me. We try our best making things work in this relationship. Effort, time and patience. I tell you what, she gave the most effort because it is hard for her to step out that very first step to accept someone in her life.

Haha, although this 4 months seem to be hard one and many things happened. i ask myself the other night, "Why is all this happening?"

My answer is, "it is because of me".

Of cause, which many will do is finding a solution to improve the situation and yes i done it. I am going to make it through once and for all; making a better relationship.

I fall down into temptation again and again. Of cause, she was great that she keep trusting me till i hurt her. I will never let this keep breaking apart by breaking her heart. I will stand up this time on my own. Giving all that i could. damn fucking serious this time! When people does bad stuff, they remember yet when they good stuff, they tend to forget. It is okay with fights in a relationship but resolving the problem is the solution.

I just want to say through black and white, "i, Tan Wen Bin gonna make it work"; vowed again the light.

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If readers ask, why am i doing all this for. As i can only answer, it is because i love her and she has been a part of my life that i never wish to lost her.

You beat me in front of my friends

You insulted me

You pinched me

You teased me

You leave many scars on me

You hit my butt

Because you love me. Of cause i think through, if one day you leave me and there's no more pinching and noise making from you. It's gonna be a slow night with sorrow.

Hey, listen. It takes two hand to clap. we both are very tired of all this that are happening. I am here changing, giving you the best and i need your help too. Helping me make this work out. This relationship is not mine, is not yours but is ours. Our responsibility of finding solution whenever troubles come. Our responsibility to help out each other.

I am sorry.. but still i holding on through the long cold night.

Amazed

2009-12-04T22:49:00.002+08:00

Mid-Semester test is near the corner. In fact, It's starting on next Monday. time was quite consuming and i have to work. Fortunately, i am able to push it till next week after my examination. Quite a handful things need to be done after exam. Of cause, basketball. Which i don't think i am going to attend to it anymore. the reason is because i can barely jump with an inverted triangle body.

I can handle everything, as long as i set my time right and put determination into education. i am surely i can do it. Self-discipline too. :)

I don't know how you do what you do, I'm so in love with you and it just keeps getting better. i want to spend a day with you so much. With you by my side just want to say Baby, I'm amazed by you.

If only i was someone who lives up the standard

2009-11-29T22:17:00.002+08:00

For once, we will be as one for the moment in time. Even if time pass by us, if you wanna be free and i will let you fly. Time can't erase a feeling this strong, so keep linger on been with you. I wouldn't stand in your way but whatever it is, girl when you will be back again, you will know in your heart thats when the feeling was once so strong. I'll linger on you, protect you when the night gets colder. trust me that i have given my best and i will put more BESTty in it. laughed

i love u

I've been waiting for my dreams to turn into something that I could believe in strongly and looking for that magical rainbow yet on the horizon, I couldn't see it. Not until I let go and gave into love and watched all the bitterness burn. Now I'm coming alive in and out of Body and soul and feelin' my world start to turn.

I'll taste every moment and live out loud.
Time of my life

only i wish you'll be mine

2009-11-24T17:39:00.002+08:00

As days gone past me, i get better from my sickness. Yes, indeed i am very sicked. I'll be fine in no time :)

Soft-throat, Flu, blocked nose, fever, cough, ulcer, drowsiness.

D: Poor, tommy.

Mid-semester is round the corner, gonna work hard for it. :)

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Time, is going by, so much faster than I, and I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you. Now I'm, wondering why. As long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands, because I believe that i need you. You've gotta live every single day, like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes? Just remember that don't let it slip away, it could be our only one and you know that it's only just begun. So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...

you never gonna be alone! From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall. When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on. We're gonna see the world that so called "end", i'll hold you till its gone. I'm gonna be there always for you.

Don't doubt my seriousness, because lovely,

i wanna be with you truthfully.

Sometimes we just gonna make tough decision

2009-11-19T17:31:00.002+08:00

Recently, i have total zero mood for blogging. Maybe soon it shall close down..

Studies have been coping well with it bah. reports and revision are just getting to the top of my hard. Rushing to it.

It has been a few months that i have you by my side. Luckily, i am not who i used to be and if i know in order to be there for you i need to fight my own.

My own battle; hurtful.

my thoughts aren't stable like what i foresee. I thank God for guiding me and allow me to see, the battle i am facing; Jealousy, unwanted thoughts. As i am working towards it, i just pray that i need peace. Love is patient and Love is kind, it does not envious and lead into jealously. Gonna push myself together and work it out.

i'm just ain't a better man and if ever there a man whose better. All i need is to close my eyes and realize what best for her. I am so vulnerable and stupid.

I need your passionate, your hand, your trust, your encouragement, you total concern and your truly love, So that i can fought against the battle in me. I never know what will the future holds, but i am thankful for each day been with her.

It is getting tired but is worth the effort to have you around. :)

and i love you

2009-11-03T18:51:00.002+08:00

“Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.”

So keep determination, readers. Whatever happens in this life you had, Let the troubles come to you because that is when you will learn and succeed. :)

Remember that without the sun, the earth will still be spinning and if you stop determination with you right now. You will lose out success :) Keep the faith, readers.

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You, me and us

From the moment I saw you during the first date and from the moment i looked into your eyes, there was something about you I knew, i knew that are so different in a way that so much more than just a girl. A treasure near impossible to find when i knew how i feel about you as that's when you didn't know my thoughts but then I know how lucky I am to have you this time round.

Cause i've seen twilight with you that could take your breath away, the beauty of the setting sun, on any given day. Those are the day that i can't believe that you're here in my arms and I've dreamed about you. Pictured in my mind who I would see but I never imagined just how beautiful you'd be.

I'm sorry if i have treat you bad in any ways i never knew. Of cause i do hope you treat me better. :) As you getting use to it, just gonna let you know, I'm not a good actor and i can never be a Good one but you believe my heart for it speaks true.

2009-11-02T20:44:00.000+08:00

no mood to blog....

School starting soon

2009-10-18T20:56:00.003+08:00

TIME TO GO BACK SCHOOOOOLLLLL

someone like you

2009-10-11T22:13:00.003+08:00

Tired of everything

I'm wearing thin protection and I couldn't tell you the city I'm in, the streets and the buildings. In simple, I'm tired of everything. So sing me a song I know all the words to and I'll sing along. i just feel like busting off the speaker. Could you be my savior? I've been out here too long and I've just been lookin' for somewhere to belong. As i been holdin' on So can you save me now?

My life in the rear view is I'm runnin' from Jesus. Don't know where I'm going to and I got nothin' to lose. However, I'm fightin' my demons. Been lookin' for someone like you. So when the stars explode and I'm all alone. When they start to see the smoke and I finally burn out.

watch this.
I'll need someone to carry me home Safe and sound; Rest in his arm, heavenly.

I WILL BE FINE WHEN THE SUN RISES AGAIN! : D

2009-10-11T21:56:00.000+08:00

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我只想要你开心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过
但我什么都愿意

沈祥龙 - 所以

another level from the heart

2009-10-10T20:05:00.002+08:00

i stare into the nights and thinking of you.
You know, you know
that i love you and i have love you all along.
I miss you
although you're faraway.
Cause with you, i will withstand the hell to hold
your hands.
Every night, i put you in my prayer list.

i needed to hear you say,
" I love you "

When you needed an angel, you no longer need to look to the sky
cause i will make you realise that
i am right here all this while.

exhausted

2009-10-07T23:09:00.002+08:00

Life seems hard

Yah, Life seems real tough for me nowadays. Perhaps, another level of growing up. I want to go Genting so much this coming Sunday but i didn't accept the offer. Reason why is financial, I don't think i need a holiday that fast but i really want to go and relax. Got the heart but it's beyond my limits.

Sometime i just blame why do i should a tough life that work and study at the same time. I ask why i was in a broken family. Alright, somehow it's broken. I came into a conclusion that everybody's life is different just gonna live with it and live to the fullest.

Sorry, i just got tired of life recently. I need a hug D:

I want a better life and as for that, i gonna make it with my own hands. As i fall, i need her to hold me close. Man does have their weaknesses. However, i know it sound stupid but I'm doing just fine.

Can anyone just understand what i am going through. JUST FEEL IT please! D;

Learning to fall hard

It's okay with me falling down after each climb. I can get real sick of everything but i am pushing myself for a better situation. Sometimes i just need a bit of time consuming. that's all for me to get up again.

All the way of life, we will fall down. No one have a perfect life. Everybody knows how to get back up. However sometimes in life when we fallen down we don't have the strength to get back up, ask ourself do you think you have the strength to get back up?

If i just gonna fall to the ground from where i am now,
i will still stand and climb up and even higher!

Although, if i fallen 100 times, i tried 100 times to get up but i failed and give up. Readers, Do you think i can get up? No and that's the answer. If i fail, i will try again and again just to tell you it's not the end because it matters how you going to finish this race in life. Are you going to finish it strong? You will find the Strength to get back up if you keep trying in life.

I miss you badly, <3 :]

I'm afraid

2009-10-02T00:41:00.001+08:00

Phobia almost take my feel away

I must no longer feed on the ghost of my past's hurt get in my ways. Because I'm afraid of losing her. I tried, i give my best and everything i could just to be with you. : ) No matter how thing goes, all i expect is she is more than just happy and for that i will be satisfy by it : )

I may be afraid of falling in love and facing sudden truth but ways
before i fall for this someone, i was prepared for everything
and i only have a sincere heart with me.
If it was teared, i'll let time and fate decides : )

Loving a man

Sometimes it takes a big move or step to have a "attached" status with a guy for a woman. I know a lot of take time to prove it. However, there are expectations for gentlemen too. A lot of factors that men requires from a woman.

So readers, Listen to the heart of your man that loves you. Find what's true, what's in his mind and what he intention or what he wants.

Ladies, i know it's hard to push through such sacrifice for these so called status thingy but if the heart of his is true to you as soon as you find out. Ask yourself, isn't this what you wish for : ) Good man/woman only passes by our life for ONCE. Once! If ever it was gone, you still can get a good man but not a better one : )

Loving someone is hard because along the ways,
many things can happen and if it wasn't handle well,
things will turn out of hands.

Now, i have to get back at one. [ It's okay, i can handle it : ) ]

It's undeniable that we should be together and it's unbelievable on how I used to say that I'd fall never. Do you feel the same? If you don't know or wasn't aware just how I feel then allow me show you now that I'm for real. If all things are up to the time so time shall reveal. Very Incredible that the way things work themselves out.

You know you got the keys to my heart

One - you're like a dream come true
Two - just wanna be with you
Three - Girl its plain to see
that you're the only one for me
Four - repeat steps one through three
Five - make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
then I'll start back at one

Results are out

2009-09-23T22:19:00.002+08:00

I am disappointed with myself.

I can't blame that i was too busy and i couldn't study. This is rather been emotional but i never know where to express. I can have work and i can have training at times or rather most of the time. Still, i must tell myself that it is not an excuse to me that i neglect my academic results! I really did screw up in this poly life right now. Some says," i have too much to handle", "you are pushing too hard and have a break" and "you got too many commitments"

i told myself this hour that it can't be an excuse to this result i got.

I can be better : )

Today was rather busy and kind of siansation you know?! but still, i manage to get tough right now. Just not long ago, there is this fellow who literally laughs at my result compare to his. I got 2.5 GPA. I was so angry at first for his actions and proud-ness ! I dislike it man! I make it so hard to poly because i was LAUGHED when i was in ITE! i told myself forget it and start again.

I forgive his mistake. However, he just gonna watch his line because i am coming up to him real fast.

Never look down on a man who striking hard in life. He will get hurts and if you say sorry it is too late just because he will be pushing hard to himself and overtake you. I'm ain't joking or kidding with you son, you just make a mistake for laughing at me. : ) Watch your back, I will over run you.

Guide me, guide my temper and my wiliness : )

I can be lost at times but Lord just guide me through by
my side when i am alone at the cross road.

My life are hard, still i will smile through it for the better on my future
and i just want to thank to all those discriminate on me.
It is how i will push myself.
I wouldn't hate those that just discriminate me but i will advice you that it your
turn now to work harder because i am running towards you.

: ) No hates, No pain but efforts and encouragement for myself today! : )

Never want to lose you

2009-09-22T22:24:00.002+08:00

News outbreak; My ankle have not recover fully :(

It's giving me a hard time that i will have the mentality to give up during the game because it hurts at certain position. I do work up, eat medicine and lesser down my drinking of cold water. However, things just get worsen. I'm on the verge giving up game but after today's game, Mr. H. Ming advices me and i comfort my mood. :) I play averagely today! opponent was weak too. I must be prepare even though I'm ain't the main players :)

Sometimes it best when someone who is better seating beside you can pushes you! :)

i just love you been around me :) I miss you baby!
You're special in my eyes, your tease and your sunshine smile. :}

哪里有彩虹告诉我

2009-09-19T22:58:00.002+08:00

FIRSTLY,
Recently have been Really busy, So i'm sorry for not posting.
:)

I'm Enjoying my holidays! Indeed, things just get better perhaps it's the power of love.

Sad to say, I still just gonna be busy with work and also basketball. For work, can forget about it. For basketball, Nanyang Cup, Inter-Con Games and Mens' Division C is on too. Still for so long, my ankle has not fully recovered. It doesn't matter how well you play, it only matters if you are playing your way and the effort with teams. I can be the starter 5 and after 3 minutes i was out of the game. I know it sound real bad, I ain't getting the concept of that so called coach.

Need not to be the BEST but be among the best!
thanks.

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The best thing that i feel is that you just want to see her because you missed her so much. She can be busy and stuff :) However, it's in you that she stays deeply in this heart of mine. Will you stay in me? :) Maybe time is like antidote and it is the poison that we have cause we need time! :) Just tell you so, I am ready for ups and downs. Eventuality without the sun, the earth will still be spinning :)

2009-09-09T22:02:00.002+08:00

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着

slowly take my hands, i will give you my everything

come back to me

2009-09-08T20:36:00.002+08:00

After a long day of busy working,

I am missing you, i tried not skip my meals and hoping to see you every minute before we meet. I am looking forward to see your sunshine smile again. I can be very tired and shagged, but it's you that make tiredness soar away from me.

When the visions around you do bring tears to your eyes and all that surround you can be secrets and lies. Without fail, I'll be your strength , I'll give you hope and Keeping your faith when it's gone. The one you should call and have love you was standing here all along.. If only you give me a chance, I give you my word and i'll give you my heart because this is a battle we will win and till the day life is through, this i promise you. I give 100%. :D

please

2009-09-06T00:46:00.002+08:00

Please don't push me away to others, i want you only. there is no one else.

Do you know i had loved you?

2009-09-04T10:40:00.002+08:00

something random!!

STOP THE RAIN!!! MY LEG IS HURTING!!!!!!!!!

can i just stay at home? WAHAHAWAHAHAHA!

a start of Friday

2009-09-04T10:16:00.003+08:00

Today gonna be a very tiring day as i get my feeling prepared for the worse.

I just had this bad feeling and i am so scared.
Work and Match at night.

Just want to keep going and going, never look back son, keep pushing and pushing because time wait for no one!
Yet i pray for no injuries and smoothly for everything that walk pass today.

i do not know why, there is this bad feeling of the day.

This sense of completion can only be found in your eyes. It seriously does not matter but the only thing matters the most is the brightest smile of yours to me.

Finally, 2 and a half years to go!

2009-09-02T22:37:00.003+08:00

Holidays Now. Pro and Con too. Work, Basketball and most important is her. :) i will give in my time.

Recently i have spending another night alone, wondering when will i ever see you again after this examination. Sometimes i feel like i should have just tell you how i feel then instead i keep it to myself. Honestly, i let my love go unexpressed, i hope it wasn't too late to express my thoughts to you not till you have to walk away. I do ask myself some nights, "was it something i didn't say?". When i didn't say i love you or was it words that you never heard? All these words having the urge of telling you, when all those times you teases me, all those nights talks, when i had the chance to tell you. i know i should not because i know you will not use to it. :)

Always assumed that you'd be there and i couldn't foresee the day you'd ever be leaving me and how could i let my world slip through my hands girl. OH GIRL, the love i had for you. I guess, you never had a clue, All the words were in my heart, well, they went unspoken. However, girl now my silent heart, you're the one i needed near me but i never had let you hear me. Even if i want to, i just long for you,

shut me away

2009-09-01T23:17:00.003+08:00

today isn't a good day for me. I just want to shut away from world
Not been emotional but been too tired.

Last night game have impact me a lot.

i am not focus enough
i am not pushing hard
i am not concentrating hard

I tell myself not to give excuses like:

"it's Exam period and i lost focus"
"Because of my injuries i got phobia"
"too stress that i lost control of my anger"
"i am too old for this"

so on and on. All i can say, i wasn't doing good... I do not know where to express it but i'm expressing it here.

Definitely, i didn't sleep well for the night.
i reflect and i think for a solution to keep trying and i gonna keep my head up high.

Start from the ground and i am only six feet tall but six feet tall seems so far from the ground that i knock myself down but i am not breaking because i am strong to keep going and i just gonna be strong and just keep pushing on!!!!

I AM SORRY.

It;s love i feel when i am thinking of you

2009-08-29T23:05:00.003+08:00

How to Enjoy Life's Simple Pleasures

Mindful living takes patience and practice. The most basic definition of mindfulness is being fully aware of the present moment without it being shadowed by other judgment or bias. Even if you're not ready to live your entire life mindfully, you can still take the time and care to be mindful of life's simple pleasures.

As days passes by us, there are surely many that is very upset or stressed over something else. Treat it as a troubled problem. However, People please do not forget to take a deep breathe in and Smile. Breathe and make it sound. I know it is silly that you sound out of your breathe because that breathe you had is to remind you to pursue on and never give up hope. Therefore, only us give up hopes and hope never want to give up on us.

It's our life and choices we make and work towards the best. Have you give up life? Because, Life itself have never give up on us. It may seem tough and very reckless yet never forget to reflect on your mistakes for the sake of better. You're find peace there, till then you shall realise what you are facing first. :)

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Last night, i dream of her beside me again. :) So real that i almost cry when she touch me perhaps it is just a dream. However, it is so much i reminisce you that i dream of you. I knew it because when i think of you, i feel the love. Although days and days have gone by, what can i say about us? Is there any improvement? Is there any hope? I don't know because i am just waiting for that one step you going to make. For that one step you will going to make, no matter how far we can be, a thousand steps or a million steps, all you need girl, Is to take that one precious and i will walk the remaining steps to you. I know it's true that I'll carry you through distance and time.

Will you ever know that i fall for you?
Will you ever know it is in me that you are so special?
will you ever know I'm longing for you?
:)
I hope soon enough you realize it is me

You're already someone who lives in my heart.

I wish for you all day long

2009-08-28T00:02:00.003+08:00

After a day of struggling with my sickness and studies, i push myself to a limit whereby i am very tired already but i never expect that she will send me a message. It something i long for! really, i am so contented right now, simple thought will do. You know how much i want for long. It's just a message but it can mean much to me :)

Every night in my heart, i pray for her and hope she will be just fine.

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Last night i dream that you were beside me and it seems so real. Do you know that you will filled an empty and captured the soul of mine? Hey, i know there's a million stars between us on where we are now but that won't stop my longing for a call/message and missing to see you again.

If there's one thing in this world that I know is true, i will like to let you know that it's the love that I feel when I'm thinking of you. All the hopes and the dreams are alive and so no matter how things goes, trust on me that i''ll carry you with me through distance and time.

It's amazing to have such a night with you.

2009-08-23T23:13:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night was a best night. I had a good chat and a bad chat with coach;
What important is before the bad trouble comes along, i had my night brighten up
:)

All the night under the shelter of pouring rain, it was cold and all i was is to think through what he had mention and most importantly, in my mind is all the way with reminisce. Reminisce is something i do best but at least i learn how to control it ever since then from my fallen. :)

If there is one thing i can amend my past, i will change my character and i will not give up on hope and make the best out of my life! It's never too late to start all over again at the age of 19, for those that know how bad i have been i hope they see a new better man.

it's never late for anything people, just as you keep your faith and pushes your limit to the furthermost. YOU SHALL SUCCEED. Just keep the faith. :)

When i'm missing you

2009-08-22T23:57:00.002+08:00

went over to east coast park last night after supper.

On the jetty, i laid down, watching the sky full of stars and all the things i thought about is you

Everybody is looking for that something, that one thing that makes it all complete and that is Love. It's hard to know that i can't say i love you but just gonna to wait. I hope you are trying your best. However, do you ever know the person, is just right here?

I hope i can say to you so directly :)

"If there will 1000 steps between YOU and me, all you need is to take just 1 step and i will walk the remaining 999 Steps to get there with you and all i need is a minute to tell you how i feel, girl.... :DDD"

Don't worry as days goes on, i hope you know that i given much enough. :) Just remember telephone can only works in both ways, Whenever you need me, i will listen tender to you.

Will you continue to have your move now?
Because i had mine, i wish you will into me. :D

Exam time

2009-08-19T23:53:00.003+08:00

Exam is just round the corner, i want do the best. :)

This month is a great month.

I felt a mother's love!

Simple words can heal soul, simple touch can mend your broken heart and a little more loving can be your everything.
:DD Just wanna say, i love my mother!!

EXAM TIME: Study hard tommy, For future! for life! for everything!

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Paint my love;

It's a picture of thousand sunsets.
It's a freedom of a thousand doves
Would you Paint my Love?

I only need a minute you tell you how i feel and what's next is your move to make. I wish i could be with you and go through everything together. I'm moving slowly, how about you? it's a chess game, i made mine and so yours?

:DDDD

tell me what i am going to suppose

2009-08-15T13:30:00.002+08:00

sometimes, it wasn't how the way we express ourselves to the one you loved. The more you give in and at the end the more you will get hurt. If only you will get to know how exactly she feels.

Something you hope there will be a respond back to you and what went through before is going to repeat itself, somehow things will go utterly bad. all we can do is sit back and relax, as nothing goes on for the further.

It can be quite emotional at this post but i never meant the things here i said was fake but it's true. Sometimes you just want her to respond back, concern, express herself and even start over a conversation However, things wasn't what we want and i got too close to comfort.

I know that you are something special and I'd be always faithful. i want to be what you always needed then I hope you'll see the heart in me. you might need time to think it over but im just fine moving forward. I'll ease your mind if you give me the chance. am i crazy for wanting you and do you think you could want me too. i was thinking the whole day that i don't wanna waste your time. So tell me do you see things the way I do because i just wanna know if you feel it too. There is nothing left to hide.

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold

I don't want my love to go to waste

If the sun, should refuse to rise and the moon, doesnt hang in the night. The tides wont change, seasons rearrange.

You're the one I wanna hold

better man :)

2009-08-07T01:04:00.001+08:00

CHANGED

For long enough over so many years, i strike for the best and i give myself the best. Therefore, the only outcome i preserved was a better man here blogging. Tag out my oldest post and read more about me because i am not what you think i am for just that know me.

Whatever it is,

Life meets it own stand, when i am alone at the roadside i know i am done playing and behaving like kids! I follow the only one way that can make me succeed. Several years from now, i want to be even better than a better man.

I strike, i work hard, i may grumble but i all i gave was one sincere heart to make my life success!

After all, I'm a Family Oriented type. :)

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How to make life Easy?

First, in making life easy, people should know how to be a responsible person. He should now what the does and dont's. Being a good responsible person makes your chance of getting a job easier.

Secondly, even though you're a responsible person, if you do not have the willingness in doing your work, then your life will be miserable. In my own opinion, I believe that if you have the willingness to do your work, you will always succeed in what you are doing.

The last but not the list, people should be smart and knowledgeable on things that can bring them to the life that they want. Being smart makes people live life easy.

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If the sun still refuse to rise and the moon doesn't hang in the night. However, time won't change and season still rearrange. I believe it doesn't matter how slowly you go just as long as you don't stop.

:)

the fact that i ain't changing

2009-07-31T00:22:00.002+08:00

i do not know why was i so affected. Looks like i have been having real tough time and i just simply smile through it and determine till end.

i am exhausted by this life right now. Whatever it is, it is worth my decision to keep moving on and on. All i need is to be stay happy and make sure everyone around me feels happy. therefore, from there i can be happy too.

I just took some time and refresh my memories. I thought i have change to a better person in life aspect. However, it turns to another aspect that i have not been changing much and i realize that it's true. I can't cut off my bad habits. Which is i am still living in a gangster background they so called. Human has always got plan, a plan and goal that will determine how far they will go. I treat this goals so high that i can never reach and in the end i earn such a little of everything. Now readers, i may not have what a righteous one holds but what i have is sincerity, i may come from a bad background but what's i have been are still so unknown to me.

I always thought i am ready and strong enough to hold another one. However, i realize i was wrong and it just gonna take a longer time to adjust myself. I really hope i never meet the previous one before. However, it has happened and let me learn to be more observant.

I'm missing you

2009-07-29T22:14:00.001+08:00

Wherever you are tonight girl
I'll see you in my dreams
Wherever I go tomorrow
You'll be here next to me

And though we are a world apart
I know you'll never be that far

'Cause here in my heart
There's a picture of us
Together forever
Unfaded and unbroken
Wherever you are
Your love covers me
Forever more you'll be
Here in my heart

Whenever I miss you so much
It's more than I can bear
I won't cry, I'll just close my eyes
And know you'll be there

Your kiss and your touch
I'll never forget
'Cause you're as close
As my very next breath

apart of me just want to be with you

2009-07-23T22:53:00.002+08:00

Why am i always the one that are so luckless?

I may not take what a rich kids have and also those branded stuff they owned. However, what i have is value and i give in my best in everything. I live my own, i give my own and i'm on my own. So whatever life may bring, i may be alone but somehow i am not alone. He stands by my side, loving me.

Whatever life may bring us through, you may ave a tough time, broken relationship or even un-love-able. Don't give up trying, you may fail but keep trying and trying. It's the process that matter till the end. :)

laid back now. Sometimes i may not look serious into someone but that doesn't mean im fooling around. I am just waiting and observe if she deserves my 99.9% Most of the time, i may not express well myself but i am fine within that knowing she may be one that i give in.

just the other night i thought i heard you cry

2009-07-14T22:10:00.002+08:00

1958 to FOREVER

"There's a place in your heart and i know it is love. Brighter than tomorrow and if you really try, you'll find there's no need to cry"
- Michael Jackson, Heal the world.

listen to his cry and joy

Can you overcome life obstacles?

Sometime in our life we meet lots of things. Be it joy or sorrow, it is what you value in you to determine the outcome of the issue that is happening around you. have been mentioning that, "life is like a roller coaster and it has ups and downs". Now, tell me readers, how many people actually before you sleep at night, you will tell yourself, "tomorrow will be a better day" and it is a daily routine. I barely know people who does that, certainly i know some does it.

Whatever life brings us to, remember every step you going to take, it can be hurtful and it can be joyful, however the truth is that we must not live in our imagination and not realizing the fact that the earth are still spinning and spinning. Earth don't stop for us same as time, so keep fighting and never walk away or hide away.

You may fail trying to turn bad to good today!

what i want you to do now is remember your position where you standing, close your eyes and see in it, what can you see?

i suppose it is darkness!! (if you didnt see darkness let me know, you might be in heaven)

Next, with your eyes closed, reach out hands straight, turn yourself round and round!
Do you trust and believe that you will be in the same position as you were in before hand. Now, you may get in the same position. The purpose of doing this is to let you know that, it is life.

Life is spinning and spinning, without knowing next moment you open your BAD LUCK you see but as you overcome it and smile through out it with a positive attitude, you will find that life will spin again, and with hope, You may fall into GOOD LUCK.Readers, Some may think it is ridiculous, but look isn't been ridiculous worth trying for a better life.

Hold on to your faith and life is always revolving. Patience and be patience to learn and understand the natural law of life

sorry

2009-07-09T00:25:00.002+08:00

BAD DAY! RELEASING ANGER! PARDON ME READERS,
BUT I REALLY HAVE A BAD DAY!

i only miss out a pass on base-line passes, i knew my mistakes and that doesn't mean you have to emphasis on my mistake that was made!

and thank for the word, "FUCK" !

i know i was fucked up during competition, ya, JUST ONE MISS PASS!!!! i know my mistake.

but never use that word on me!

I have been with many basketball COACH!

SOME PULL MY JERSEY
SOME HIT MY HEAD TO WAKE ME UP AND FORCUS
SOME PUSH
SOME SLAP

JUST KEEP THE "FUCK" TO YOURSELF.

i DON'T DESERVE THAT "FUCK" OF YOURS...

TEST WAS DEMORALISING AND SO IS TODAY TRAINING!!

WHATEVER THIS FUCKING GOING ON, I KNOW IT'S GONNA KILL ME!,
I JOG AND RAN EVERYDAY, I DON'T TAKE LIFT AND I CLIMB STAIRCASE, I STUDY HARD EVEN BEFORE EXAM WHEREBY SOME ONLY START STUDYING FOR A DAY AND THEY GOT BETTER AND WAY BETTER RESULT THAN ME!.

I DONE ALL THAT I COULD TO DETERMINE IN THE GAME I LOVED AND STUDIES...

IT CAN BE DEMORALIZING BUT STILL

I WILL CONVERT THIS UTTERLY FEELING INTO A BETTER..

I BELIEVE I CAN!

i may fail at times and been careless all the time but........

2009-07-07T23:33:00.001+08:00

I got back my papers today and i think it is bad, because the way that i set my target and stuff.

i made certainly some careless mistake and,
to others it may be small but to me, it is a;

IT'S A BIG MISTAKE!!

lesson learnt and i will get better in time because of all this mistake i can achieve full mark just like that. so due to my over confidence and careless. i have failed to achieve full marks! fuck!

i promise myself i will do better again. :)

3 things on how to get better and success in life:

STUDY HARD

PLAY HARD

SMILE HARD

i was contented with today

2009-07-07T00:26:00.003+08:00

i want to thank this lady for encouraging me! :)

Today is a day whereby i can set a new target in my sport opportunities.
YAYS!!!

For 3 months of pressure and stress, today i prove that i can do it and i hope coach trust in me.

Now i want to share one thing:

Failure and Success

Let's forward to my failure, coach says, "You can't play against strong team and even i put you on the court, you will panic". When days come to worse, he does say that, "you cannot make it". i was so demoralized that i have been playing for years and cups game. Even BBAXN, an amateur professional game, i also got into the team and give my best. It's amateur and YES IT IS, so what? i am not that good in skills but all i can is start from the basic and FYI, BBAXN game is paid to play, own money to play the game.

for the entire 3 months of demoralizing words and discouragement, i told myself that i'm a player that can score and assist the team. I do not want to be like first match of youth cup against Tagawa, i'm sitting the fucking bench for the whole game.

I go to ran, i do physical training myself, i control my diet and proper warm up.

Today, my success of proving coach i can do it and i done it! whatever it is today, my aim has achieved yet it is not going to stop here. I am aiming higher and higher!

3 ways for you, readers to understand about failure in life:

1. You are going to have failures
2. Failing means learning something new
3. It might be good for you, but it still sucks

one time fail, try second time, third and on and on failed too. listen to me darling, fear nothing because as long as you keep trying and trying, you will succeed and although it is getting tougher in time. however, i have done it and now i'm really contented.

Reccession had affect lots of people, whatever it is, keep faith and push yourself :)

screw day

2009-07-01T22:52:00.002+08:00

i definately agree with the quote that says,

" Life is like a Roller Coaster , there are ups and downs along the way".

Recently, everything doesn't seems to be going smoothly or rather I'm just so luckless. Now, whatever it is, i am going to pull this tough time with a smile. Indeed, with all my smile, it will make others day brighten up and so is mine when upon seeing their smiles.

Boy, be strong, no tear that bear the happiness within you!
-my encouragement for myself

I have been very stressful recently. Be it studies, financially and demoralized training session. For basketball, after this Youth Cup, i promise that i am going to party hard for 2 months and study the max that i can also at the meantime, keep up the fitness. Definitely, i can be faster and react to everything very quickly.

Everyday, turn in to bed at 12am and wake up at 4am to revise and revise my exam module of the day! I believe i can do it because i am Tommy!

oh ya, i want to thank ShiKun for helping to set up my router, man. He has been a very great and big help to me with computer stuff. Definitely, i appreciate him lots.

i think this kid here have a very adorable nice and proud smile to show that deep inside him, his happy!

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Over the mountains and the sea, your river runs with love for me and I will open up my heart to let the healer set me free. I'm happy to be in the truth and I will daily lift my hands for I will always sing when your love came down. No price I pay, will ever be too great for me to rest alone in the love that you've shown on me to set me free.

i give you my heart

learn to love around

2009-06-29T02:16:00.002+08:00

i never gonna need you again, we're just hi-bye friend or maybe passes-by,
don't start those i love you honestly and i am drunk

Want see my F. Face!

Basketball makes me realize that i am not that strong and the way at tongwhye, the coach's demoralizing word are indeed hurtful. I know i am certainly weak but i am training hard just to make it up.

the biggest differences, with tongwhye is that players are under certain level of pressure. indeed, outside teams are not that pressuries to play on the game

i'm learning to convert stress and pressure into a motivation!

I need to unlock myself, to push to the highest, to dawn to the deepest and to build a stronger mind within.

I will get bettter in time!

I still remember my verse of the year
!

"But by God's grace I am what I am, and his grace shown to me was not wasted. Instead, I worked harder than all the others-not I, of course, but God's grace that was with me."
1 Corinthians 15:10

it's time to let myself know that i can get better and let the light shine on me! no more hiding who i want to me and this is me all this while. Even though dreams are that far away, hold on to your hope and believe you will reach them one day! Believe in yourself people, like how i did through the hard ways!

A Happy Sunday

2009-06-22T22:10:00.006+08:00

I have a Happy Sunday before the one whole week of Study's week!

Road Runners,
a team consists:
1. Ang Jun Hao
2. Joel Chang
3. Hamidah
4. Bernice Teng
5. ME!

Beginning of the day!;

just reach Marina Barrage

Thanks to brother JH for driving that day and we picked up everybody. Headed to East Coast park's MacDonald to have their breakfast before the race starts! Everybody was tired and i don't know how much they looking forward to the race but i does! :)

As planned with JH that we should a team bonding to group everybody together! Definately, we played card games! I can say, it's a funniest 45 Minutes for the whole morning!

Loser will have forfeirt!;

Across 1KM, shout till the othe side of the bridge can hear Bernice

She looks like an Auntie! laughed

To dance on the center of the fleid! & she's so crazy dancing! laughed

10 times Push-up will kill her! laughed!!!

During the RACE!!!;

Beginning of the race! sorry for my Kuku-ness Face! laughed

The Road Runner Princesses

On our Way back to MB!

Complete the Race!!

Bernice's Favourite - Joel's sexy leg

Sweet Road Runners

We are wear off!

I just realise that when Bernice takes photo, her head is always to her right!
Laughed, have you realise! laughed!

LUNCH-TIME!!! WEEEE~

We headed to East Coast to have... * DRUM ROLL!!

CARL'S JUNIOR!!!

The youngest Road Runners!

Random!

YUMMY! i had my one Whole Set of

This is nice too! *yummy!

We ended the race! See our Shag faces, all the eyes! laughed!

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A token of appreciation and Thanks-Giving;

Firstly, i want thank them for every laughter they brought to me. It's a long race and we manage to get top 20 among 90 teams i supposed. We never win;

However i am proud! Why!!!!!

Because WE may lose and failed at times but WE never failed to GIVE UP and complete the race.

Just to be honest, *laughed* everyone said that Bernice will be the burden of our team and i said i hope not and no comments. Everybody in the team during the race, we keep encouraging her because WE knew she can do it and Hamidah too! Xiao Ting vomits blood, you see!

She pushes herself to complete the race, endure the pain and fighting against the weather! HAHA! i saw her pushing through her limits and Bernice the rest is proud of you! Because of that i am happy to see someone pushes through their limits.

Brother Ang Jun Hao! laughed, thank for everything!
sometime, a simplest sentence means a million factors!

Hamidah for not been a " Soil under water", kidding!
I love your dance!! your shaky shaky dance! laughed!

Joel the sexist legged, i Hope you enjoy hanging around with the odies!! laughed!!

THANKS GOD FOR THIS AMAZING SUNDAY!

BEEP BEEP!! - Road runners!

sometimes words are hurtful

2009-06-18T02:39:00.002+08:00

i got to be strong!

i meet someone who i used to follow and for so many years i saw him today! Coach Roy, the last time i saw him was when i sec 2, can you imagine that it have been so many years and you still this coach. he had commented on my skills and inspired me.

Sometimes, the truth may hurt somehow but it is up to how you deal with it.

Coach Roy said, "you are slow and one thing that is out of all of the players on floor, other than your position(forward), Fast break is what you have only"

Thanks for all the advice and it is nice seeing you once again.

Been a Forward:
-speed
-defense
-just run

i may be demoralized, sad, and facing the truth is hurtful
but i am going to do is smile as it goes and work on it.

:)

2009-06-16T22:42:00.004+08:00

Encouragement

A word of encouragement during a failure is worth
more than an hour of praise after success.

"Encouragement offers more potential than cash. The amount of cash is limited, but you have an unlimited supply of encouragement ... encouragement feeds people's souls."

Everyone needs encouragement at one time or another, from the CEO, mother, father, child, or employee, to the professional athlete or performer. Encouragement means to inspire, incite, foster, or stimulate courage with hope. As many of us can recall, as children, we sometimes needed encouragement to complete a task. What we can not give to ourselves, we borrow from those around us.

For us as adults, our early situations may have changed but the human condition of needing support has not. At some level, we all need to be encouraged.

Whatever your life purpose and whether your work is in healthcare, education, business, criminal justice, ministry, families, or myriad thousands of other responsibilities, your overall activity should leave others feeling encouraged.

If your life or actions do not include the foundation of encouragement toward others, you need to evaluate how encouragement can become part of your purpose.

Start by giving it away.

Encouragement is not something to be saved, collected, or withheld; that approach has little redeeming value. Encouragement is a perishable item best enjoyed in the moment. Once the aircraft has left the ground, an empty seat is a lost opportunity. When you hesitate in offering your encouragement, the opportunity is gone.

A funny thing happens when you encourage others-you feel encouraged and better about yourself.

Now, look here carefully!

NEVER, NEVER, NEVER underestimate the power of your encouraging words toward any other person! For example, many people seem to think that successful individuals need less encouragement. Don't discount the impact you have or can have with everyone you meet. At any given moment, you can make a difference in someone else's life by encouraging him or her. We need to remind ourselves that while this creates invaluable results, it costs us nothing.

It is important to graciously and thankfully accept encouragement from others. In other words, don't discount your value or their confidence in you.

Finally, be authentic and intentional in your encouragement. Be real but look for opportunities to encourage others. Make it part of your mindset to encourage someone every single day. Give it away-your act of encouragement can and will affect millions.

Start giving your encouragement for others and live the purposr

perfect matches

2009-06-14T14:28:00.002+08:00

Life's an adventure

Since young, everybody have their aspirations, been a doctor or policeman. However, life's turned out the other way when kids grown up and it's how they learn to face reality, their fears and they loved one.

How i wished that i was born only to be a child, because all day long people loves children and they are some how or rather trouble free. They are living in their own world. They cry because they can't get what they want and parent feeding them, loving them and sacrificing every moment to give the best to the children.

Every grown up have their problems, some relationship, school work, working society stressfulness, family issue and personal thoughts and doubts. Definitely, there are more and i love to stay problem-free because i tend not to bother those that are least important. What i do is setting goals in my life and work on it like nobody else gonna set traps pulling me back from what i want to be or who to be.

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For those that troubled,

KEEP YOUR HEAD UP, never let it down and the world is spinning round and round the days. I don't believe there are things remind unsolved, it only whether YOU want to make it work or YOU choose not to be bother about life and everything that mind went through. If YOU are telling me that, "hey!, i'm troubled and im gonna let days lead the way and linger on whereby i can choose not to bother or hiding away from it".

Now, I'm got to tell that time wait for no one, every seconds are tickling, if you are lazy to solve the thing that are meant to be bother of and you simply can't be bother about it. YOU ARE WASTING YOUR PRECIOUS TIME ON SOMETHING THAT AIN'T GOT TO WORTH IT.

people mentioned that i do sounded like i'm troubled-free type of guy. I am not, just that i went through and i expreienced it. However, because of my failure, i make it and i learn from it. Today who i am is somebody who's new and compare to the past. Whereby, i just linger my life away whe i can't be bother about everything.

I love my life now, so troubled and happy, because i choose to be Happy. :)

there will this young lady she told me that day, anyway she's one of my bitches, laughed and we always talk like nobody's business.

She told me this, "It's okay tommy, life's great and you can only get better through the hard ways."

Like i always agreed and i thank God for many people around me, i pray for those that are troubled that they will find "happy" in it.

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe is harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
So when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take it by the hand and show you that you can
There're no boundaries

jump to the highest, go into the deepest because there is no boundaries.

No boundaries

2009-06-14T01:12:00.003+08:00

How can a summer season rains, just like people that they have their own problems and troubled. i do have mine too, but i treat it in a positive ways that nothing gonna affect it. So many days, and that every second you are still breathing cherish what's life gonna get you through. Definitely, it can be tough, but the only factor that life can get better is through the hard ways.

i have calls at nights and messages at nights, telling me i need an ear and i give it to them. i spend my sleep listen their cry and without fail, i talk to them like a someone who have not been there for long. As there is bitch, yvonne (laughed), we have been talking on phone almost everyday and every since for years she never fail to pursue me to begin thinking for myself first than others. Issac did that too, wei ming and leon! Gentlemen, it's been years, i am always like this and the fact that it's not gonna change what i am because when you smile, so will i.

What matters the most when you make other
people days so happy and content when they are low?

Their smile, their thank you, their appreciation and their callings

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hey yvonne, i remember what you told me and yah, i love having you around and so is the rest. i know what you are trying to mean. remember the test? laughed, yes i believe you do! so please stop nagging!

Test yourself answer by tag or MSN:

There will a hurricane towards a bus-stop and surpirisely there will 3 people in the bus-stop. While you are driving a 2 seater car away from teh hurricane, you passed by the bus-stop and stopped. You saw the 3 people and so they will:

1. A Sicked Grandma
2. Your best friend that you can't live without
3. Your Lover, the on you can't breathe without!

Unfortunately, your car can only sit two people, at the same time you are running away from the hurricane. What will you do?

My question to you is, WHAT WILL YOU DO!?

no rights or wrong.
:)

i asked someone this evening and i know she/he gonna be just fine in life:)
i do concern about him/her anyway.

supposingly its only me.

2009-06-13T02:11:00.002+08:00

life may get who wondering around the circle at times but it is how we gonna make it straight and strike hard when chances come along. Everybody have their own life and pursuing what they are really good in or in their future. I am glad for those that strike hard but i am feeling sorry for those that did not. It's never too late to get better in life, it only work with just 2 hands of yours.

What life may bring me today, i am glad that tomorrow is gonna start with greatness and people appreciating. I know i am gonna do just fine even i was so demoralized.

It's okay Tommy, Life's great and it can only get better through the hard ways

life's good somehow

2009-06-11T00:06:00.002+08:00

Another picture of yours, another life I tried hoping to live with someone, another meaning once untrue and within so short of time with every memory of you goes broken in my sleep. However there's another moment lost in time i felt, when you talked of love and I agreed. So many chances passed us by and now ive lost the strength to try.

God, please make me study hard, train hard and live hard.
so i can be a better man, amen.

=l

2009-06-07T23:56:00.002+08:00

can i say that i was feeling low in me or should i say im happy?

this moment right now, im very confused.

There are things that i don't want to learn like facing the facts that i do love her and the last one i had made me cry like nobody's can be bothered. That's why i don't want to learn to go deep into this crush and im gonna let time handle it. By not thinking that you're mine because it ain't got joy.

Don't worry I'm fine

what can i do.

2009-06-06T00:01:00.002+08:00

i am so contented,

She may be attached but if the crush will to confirm it's her. it's worth waiting beside that if she's yours and so she will be yours! Need not to rush things because i believe every people have different character, she may be weakest but all i can do is to give her a helping hand that she's just gonna be so fine.

All i know, as long as i am single of attached, i will give in my very best in everything i do and it is very best. Everybody wants to settle down into a relationship with someone that can accompany you walking side by side on a journey that was dangerous. So do i want one too! i vowed that im not going to play anymore although it's been a long time i last played but this time round, it takes a year plus to forget someone and start again. I faced the truth enough that i want to face the fact that i am in crush with that person.

It's all about waiting.

Oh my Goodness, basketball

2009-06-04T00:13:00.003+08:00

Improvement in life can be determine by
how you improve in little things you do

Coach says, "Your shooting position not right and feeling not good enough" and he mentions when the ball on the run, "Say you, you also don't understand and the way your finishing cannot make it". Wasn't it demoralizing? laughed, but seriously i am fine and happy with it because i still can get better.

I'm fine and okay! Because his negative comments is my weakness and i should seek for improvement! I'm okay with criticism and negative words because i will think that those points are the points whereby i need to seek for improvement. I'm a weak long-ranged shooter and slow aiming. However, it is the fact that we are facing strong team and i target myself for "Higher Jump shot" and i was uncomfortable with it at first. I will train hard, a promise made for myself. Thanks coach for the comments that I'm not using my wrist to shoot but pushing the ball off my hands. With that, i conclude and i know where i should be improve.

I need Red-Bull Classic Drink. it gives me wings to fly!
laughed

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BASKETBALL: THE PLAYOFFS FINAL 2009

Orlando Magic against L.A. Lakers

-My Favorite Team and Players ( Andrew BYNUM #17)

#16"come on give me a FIVE man!" AND Kobe (guy in the centre), "Alright!! Be a Man!"

A.Bynum#17 "EEWW, you can't catch me" *stupid face*

"OH-ssssssssss"

K.Bryant #24 " I can Fllyyyy"

All the way, Lakers!

2009-06-03T16:22:00.003+08:00

i had a lot of things to do right at this very Wednesday.

AE&E - Capacitance Circuit
MIP - Tutorial 4
2 Subjects Revision on Friday's Quiz.

Guess today, tomorrow and Friday night i will be having basketball training!!
i want to skip trainings but my responsibility tells me, "you can't".
I failed my AP-CHEM.

However, never lose heart and keep trying my very best.

i may fail at times but i never fail to give up.

After today i will be better because i throw it away, forget yesterday and i will make it through. Without hearing those filthy words, i love be tough because it makes me learn and grow. However, i need time. I pray and ask.

once again

2009-06-02T21:43:00.003+08:00

alright yup, i think i will admit that it has been quite awful for me. However, just take the time and slowly and steady, it will be alright

Lazy to study. My result in Applied Chemistry is not very well, i failed! damn it, i will work extra hard during the holidays.

Projects, report and study. 3 weeks to cope and i am going to take my bike lesson! I have a supporter behind to pay for it. Double my smile... :D

this feeling is just so awful and i don't know why. Although, it have been a long time for yours but where i am now will remain where i am and look, observe and seek for more chances. :)

想要有直升机
想要和你飞到宇宙去
想要和你融化在一起
融化在宇宙里
我每天每天每天在想想想想著你
这样的甜蜜
让我开始乡相信命运
感谢地心引力
让我碰到你
漂亮的让我面红的可爱女人
温柔的让我心疼的可爱女人
透明的让我感动的可爱女人
坏坏的让我疯狂的可爱女人

my crush or im crazy?

2009-06-01T22:53:00.003+08:00

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CRUSH

We end our conversations that night and something happened for the first time, deep inside my heart i was feeling, "It was a rush, what a rush" because the possibility that you would ever feel the same way about me. However i guess, it’s just too much, just too much. Without knowing the reasons, why do I keep running from the truth. All i ever think about is you and somehow got me hypnotized, so mesmerized, and i just got to know do you ever think, when you’re all alone, about it will that we could be, where this thing could go. Am I crazy or falling in love, is it real or nothing after all.

Do you catch a breath, when I look at you, are you holding back, like the way I do because I’m trying to walk away but I know this crush ain’t going away. Has it ever crossed your mind when we were hanging, spending time, and we are just friend. Is there more, see it’s a chance we’ve gotta take because I believe we can make this into something that will be happy.

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this is a kuku!

till now, there are no solution

2009-06-01T00:57:00.002+08:00

Joy is having a madness fever over The Sims 3

laughed, i think she is crazy. OOPS! and Joy, i don't agree that I'm in a crush because i myself do not know why am i feeling that way.

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Recently, have been busy with basketball's training and study. Sometimes, above all this i hope i have things that are better to do. However, with this thing now hands i can handle them well but for working i can't because things will get out of hands.

Although basketball is such an elective exercise for me but i just love the game. I can go through it so tough, so hard and injured, i may grumble a lot about my injuries and stuff but i still love the game. Definitely because basketball can make you learn things in life. Give a scenario, the ball is in your hand and it is your responsibility to put the ball into the basket and score.

Winning or losing in life, is in your bare hands. :)

i do not know why i am feeling this way and i am pretty sure i will figure out myself. If it is a crush i should have know by now but if it's not a crush i also should have know by now. This is just gonna be the first time i never know myself i was in in crush, if it is really a crush. How am i gonna turn around and say this can't be true.

Look, i was too busy to realise that i was in a crush. don't worry Tommy, everything will be alright again. However, i got no time for all this stuff. Dear God, only the person that can be true to me, show her to me and kept me safe.

THE END

it wasnt a good sign

2009-05-31T01:00:00.003+08:00

i had a shocking new.

and right now i am feeling kind of emotional.
and i am asking myself, seriously,

"Why do i feel this way?" and literally
it's so kind of weird, hurtful, sadness and it makes me want to tear.

Don't ask me why i will feel that because i barely can figure it out myself!

conclusion with yvonne:

i had a talk with evon like we always does and ii told her the sudden feeling i got for this person! Seriously, i really don't know why i felt this way! and it seriously cant be i had a crush on her. It can't be. Laziness woman wasn't in my dictionary. i was so blanked when i was about to know the end of the issue but i was shocked not with the issue because it will never matters to me. Just curiosity about that life. What issue most is the way i felt at the end!!!

evon repeatedly mention, "you have a crush on her."

when and when i know i have a crush i will know it and i know myself much better than anyone else. i know what type of tea with what ype of milk will make them a good combination. It can't be i have a crush on her but like evon says that you never know till someone mention.

and IT CAN'T BE!!!!
seriously, why am i getting so low upon listening to the factors?

soul-searching. btu seriously, it can't be mah.. jia lat..

the days that.////

2009-05-30T17:39:00.001+08:00

THE DAY THAT DERRICK LEFT HIS LAST TESTIMONIAL.....

HERE I AM

2009-05-27T23:09:00.004+08:00

I KNOW IT IS LONG POSTED.. MAKE AN EFFORT TO READ IT ALL.. BECAUSE YOU MIGHT NEED THE WISDOM!

i promised i will blog so i will, and i am here blogging alright! people like karen and Derrick cannot wait one. Good stuff are meant to be waited. Laughed, just kidding with you two. Alright, speaking about DERRICK GAN YAN CONG, i declare, it his last day in Pizza Hut and also is Dennis. On and on, it will be follow by Hafiz, Fazil who have already resigned and many more i guess. However, Derrick have work with me so long, his effort was not pay off and simply unfair to him. 4 years in PH was just fun and damn fuck up with certain people around. Laughed, that's working society you see.

And i still contacting with elizabeth! laughed, just that we're busy....
Speaking about PH, i saw Andy, Best-Bud in PH used to. Now his working as Engineer.

However, from my point of view, working for 4 years i saw people leaving and coming in. With pretties, uglyest, fattest and even SKINNEST. Laughed, that's the fact alright, okay back to the point. I have my high and low in the PH, when things got so coped up in life and it just affect my working performance. For me, i think that i wasn't responsible for the action i take and i'm trying to stand on the point that i'm gonna just help out as much as i could. Although things in PH can never be the same, because things will change. Therefore, it's the reason why people left there. Other factors included was PAY too. I think that's the most hot topic in PH.

I'm thankful for people who i have been contacting with recently, been concerned and so am i been concerning to them. As time fly pass us, our life is getting older by the tickling second, so must must cherish everybody around us.

Tonight my main point will be;

The Life we hold.

Life is what we hold in our hands, we can destroy it with just mistakes and we can make it better with correcting from the mistake been made. Sometimes, life can get us real down and not to left up HIGH because the fact that people tend to emotional at times. However, if we face things with a positive attitude things can be people. According to this, readers you may ask, "who don't know" and i promise you i can tell you there are more about been positive in life.

Been positive is to see things in a better aspect but why not let's try this, apply Positive into others people life. giving support, showing care and concern and not just that. Focus here, human have their ow problems, so if let say i have mine too and it's utterly a big problem and it got me real down to the ground. However, applying life experiences to others whom are deeply sad or lost. It is a most touching action between human. It is up to the person to appreciate it or not. But to me, it doesn't matter. I know who are masked, as in they think the way they are is good enough compare to others. Why people compare!? if you compare in a good ways i agree, but never compare things that will pull your morale down.

Trust the man, Tommy..

I thank God, i have been quietly praying in my heart everday because of my hot temper, stress, training, criticism on me by coach, financial and many factors. All i asked for is very simple, PEACE in my heart. W

ith that, i shall end this post with people who are around me, facing troubles in relationship and studies problematic. Not to worry, because if i am not worry why you guys worry. kidding! The advice for you guys is simple,

Smile through the days. it is just like Earth keeps spinning and spinning, but the sun and the moon never stop shining. Problems can keep coming in but never fail to Smile through it

When i am very stressed, I played this to Dis-stress and relax..

COOL UH!!!

THE END

2009-05-25T00:28:00.000+08:00

i promise i will blog tml
i promise

purest of pain.

2009-05-12T01:21:00.002+08:00

im sorry, i didn't mean to message you but I couldn't fight the facts that im missing you. Perhaps, i guess i was weak and couldn't even hide it, and so i surrender just to hear your voice. nevertheless, i seek for one that can make me feel this special ways, and maybe someone else is already standing there beside you. Girl, give me my fantasies, the courage that i need to live and the air that i need to breathe. living without you, my world becomes so empty and my day's are so cold and lonely. Each night i taste the purest of pain. Somehow i wish i could tell you that i'm feeling better every day without seeing you. however, desprite the fact that it didn't hurt me when you walked away but to tell you the truth I can't find my way into you. make me feel you, vida.

suppose that i was wrong

2009-05-11T00:25:00.003+08:00

i can't be bother anymore.

i'll named them as stranger and they will a danger.
i felt that working in that place, everyone was wearing a mask.
No more fun on work like pizzahut's under a roof that was used to be.
Lisze, Andy,fitri,yati,ezul,faridah,suzanna,stanley ong, anges, wanling and many more.

a way to De-stress myself.

As i will to upload this post.
Joy Lim XN,
smsed and encouraged me.

I thank God for her and im thankful for everyday that was given upon on me. :)
i loved the way certain people speaks. Just like yours. A sms, an effort made and *BOO* a smile for you. :)

i dislike this

2009-05-10T15:21:00.002+08:00

Every time, every moment and when everything was going alright, it comes to WORK. However, i dislike this feeling of been pushed to go work. No motivation work on it and it's kind of like, im forcing myself to go work.

Why on Earth, human needs to work?

Living in a stress society but Hey, i have the love.
Whom lifts me, whom show the love for me and despite the fact that thou deserve you.

Stripped and polished, i am new, i am fresh, i am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh because every breath that you will take and when you are sitting next to me, you will bring life into my deepest hopes.While waiting for your call, im sick of tired and angry and im desperate for your voice. Listening to the song we used to sing , in my car, do you remember those Butterfly, Early Summer that were playing on repeatedly. Just like when we would meet. I was born to tell you I love you and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine. So stay with me tonight.

2009-05-10T03:13:00.002+08:00

lots of homework undone.

there were eyes that never lie to me,

so don't look away.

It's more to tomorrow rather than yesterday

2009-05-06T23:40:00.001+08:00

Be grateful for what have been given to you.
Be humble for what is teaching upon you.
Be patience for the toughest time.
Be determine when everything's falling down.
Be strong in facing things and emotions.

Because Life can take tomorrow and the plans we made, it can even take the music that we'll never play, all the broken dreams, take everything and just take it away. However, they can never have yesterday, they can take the future that we'll never know, they can take the places that we said we will go, all the broken dreams take everything and indeed life just take it away, but they can never have yesterday!

Everyday training, Tiredness, shag-ness and stress in school.
I got no life.

Sometimes,
i blamed myself for not been smart. The way i analysis on student that they are ways smarter than me.
Unfortunately,
i am not smart after all.

Whatever and whenever life got me, i always tell myself this,
"i should be thankful for everyday that was given to me"

In my Heart, like a tattoo

2009-05-04T23:43:00.002+08:00

No matter what you say about love i just keep coming back for more and keep my hand in the fire because sooner or later I get what I'm asking for. No matter what you say about life, I learn every time I bleed. The truth is a stranger and soul is in danger that im gotta let my spirit be free. However, to admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind. Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind. Sick and tired of playing all of these games. It's not about taking sides when I looked in the mirror didn't deliver. It hurt enough to think that I could stop to admit again.

I can't waste time so give it a moment and I realize nothings broken. No need to worry about everything I've done. However, live every second like it was my last one. Never look back and got a new direction. I loved you, once needed protection. You're still a part of everything I do

You're on my heart
Just like a tattoo

im happy. =D

Life

2009-05-03T22:02:00.002+08:00

I am getting tired easily.

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Charice Pempengco

Still remember? If not, go youtube and search her name
She would've impress you. Trust me.

and She's 16 this year with starting of her career on her new album, CHARICE

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im happy.

2009-05-01T11:16:00.000+08:00

EVERY TIME I HAVE TO FORCE MYSELF TO GO WORK! &*&*%#*^$*@*$%*$*$*^@*$^*

Broken dreams

2009-04-27T23:25:00.002+08:00

Sickness COME after me! i will defeat bacteria in me that causing me to be weak and so sicked. So, fall out of my head you stupid sickness.

Coughing, tiredness and tearing.

What happens if life meet my end here or maybe just the next moment?
-I'm not been negative or what, it is just happen to come about. However, yesterday was a day to be remembered but what if i do not have a tomorrow. With every minute clocking, i will never give up to live my life to the fullest.

I am getting old. Seriously, i will consult my doctor soon.

My current mood and status:
Stress
Headache
None proper meals
Weak in everything such as faith as well
Pressure
Worries
Tough time

Dear Lord,
Every knee bow before you and their mouth will give praises to the Lord. With no doubt, i know Father you are here always been right beside me. As my heart contains passionate in most of the things that wasn't right for me and i know it. However my Lord, it is simple things that will make me prefect. I shall bow before You. Asking and Seeking, for the faith, for the strength, for the hope and for everything that would have make me mostly perfect. I thank you for day, living in my shoes i was stressed and God, you comfort with your rob. Thou keeps you right in front of my heart. Father, I thank you for everything that your life that was given was so amazing.

Unwell

2009-04-26T22:45:00.003+08:00

Listen my complains:
Weather's too hot
Heat dehydration
Fever
Bad hair-cut
Study

Laughed, well i just meant to complain! :D

Study can stress a lot in life
sometimes,

Bowling will throw all the stress you can throw!
De-stress method. :D

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Unwell

All day staring at the ceiling and making friends with shadows on my wall. All night hearing voices telling me that i should get some sleep because tomorrow might be good for something.However, as i hold on feeling like, "I'm headed for a breakdown" and definiately i don't know why but i'm not crazy. It was just that I'm just a little unwell I know right now readers that you guys can't tell. Would you just stay a while and maybe then you'll see a different side of me. Remember i'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired and i know right now you don't care but soon enough you're gonna think of me and how I used to be...ME I'm talking to myself in public some kind of dodging glances on the train and I know, I JUST know they've all been talking about me i can hear them whisper and it makes me think there must be something wrong with me. Out of all the hours thinking somehow i've lost my mind But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell.

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DARE TO DREAM, DARE TO PURSUE AND DARE TO BE SUCCESS!

If God made you

2009-04-25T11:42:00.002+08:00

okay! Fatal right Leg

i think had over-stressed my right knee and ankle!

Last night incident.

Basketball was more on a contact game and i already had my leg injured just the point as i got my offensive rebound and i landed as usual hence my balancing wasn't well. So, i got myself back to the balance, there will this guy right behind me and he keeps elbowing and pushing my back. For once i am okay! For twice, I am alright. For third, Sorry no chances.

Immediately, i turned my elbows Right into the direction of his face. I mind imagine you will picking up something in a half squad position. The force from the bottom to a 170cm height it is very big! Just the moment i turned with great force, he manages to get away but unfortunately, I hit my own friend; Jeremy

Laughed, Sorry dude!

The impact was like you punch yourself right into your face. The fatal elbow i had was right into Jeremy's teeth. Luckily, it wasnt Broken! laughed

Sometimes,
TOMMY
YOU SHOULD CONTROL YOUR OWN TEMPER!

I'm running home!! :D

2009-04-23T23:31:00.002+08:00

Today when to the selection of SP basketball Team and i got into it.

However, the problem comes in. Study, Work, Outside training and Rest. 1 Week = 7 days =168 hours.

168hrs - 35hrs of sleep = 133hours
133 hours - (12 hours of training without SP's training) = 121 hrs
121 hours - (5days of study * 9 hours) = 79hours
79 hours - 5hrs weekend self study = 74 hours
74 hours - ( 24 hours of work/week) = 50 hours
50 hours - (17 hours in traveling time for school and training/week) = 33hours
33hours - (aprox 23 hours in eating time, queuing time and OTHERS) = 10 hours

Therefore, if school team training is 2 days per week and every session is from 6pm to 11pm (including reaching home) = 5 x 2 = 10 hours

Tommy's spare time = (10 - 10) hours!
= approx. 0 to 3 hours left.

Okay i know it's stupid but i just so free now. Using my resting time to do all this! So peeps, the reason why i look old because This kind of on-going Training and work and study have been going on for 3 years. Insufficient rest and in-proper meal was the cause on my old looks!

The above calculation was roughly i estimated!

Studies can really stress me!
-so i found this thing to cheer me up!

determination

2009-04-23T00:11:00.003+08:00

i do not know why i am so stupid after all. However, stupidness has a Good ways and kinds of been a stupid person. Definately, learn more than others does.

Let's do a time check. It's 12.13A.M of the new day 23 Apr. 09
Today's there is no training, So i thank God for the time spare in study.
:D

i moved my cable modem out from my room to the living room on the dining table because i need a Big space to think! laughed so i actually did moved out of the room and i have been sitting uncomfortably on the wooden chairs for 5 hours plus just to study the 8 questions of Physical chemistry! i was like Oh my God! However i do know whether i got the right or wrong answer after all but i am glad that i did not give up and i determine to do my very best! :D It's not been action or what you guys called "posting". okay!? i am just glad i do it!Bless me people as i am going to my lala land to rest! I am just so tired! Even without training, i am still so tired.

HAHA! everynight, i will tell myself this

"You need not be the BEST but be AMONG the BEST!;

if you are stress, let the stress burns but NEVER GIVES UP ON EVERY THINGS YOU DO"!!

the way i do

2009-04-21T23:13:00.002+08:00

Endurance is what i am going through
facing huge stones was what i always faced
climbing low was never a "NO" to me.
Going Up and Up is what acceptable for me

Determination;
a fixed purpose,
the power and will to persist,
resolve,
to have the drive,
to have the grit,
to go the distance,
to be hell-bent on reaching a goal and;
getting it done no matter what.

my Right ankle hurts!
TOMMY! let it pain just endure for 1 more month! LET IT BURN, LET THE PAIN BURN!
when the sunrises in my sight, thanks God cause he gives you hope! =D

Some say love was a river..

2009-04-18T00:23:00.003+08:00

Was chatting with a newly known friend, just it happened to fall onto a subject that is about relationship and here goes the post of the day..

I've grown up to know what type of Woman I'm gonna go after for. Definitely, my heart was seated well after what happens a year ago. Moved on and I'm ready for the next one. Although sometime it's funny that when you are searching for one, You can never find a true one because it only makes you desire and hurt the others. However, if you're not going to search for one, Right at the moment you turn your head around, she just pop out from nowhere!

Like the old says, Let natural take it courses.
Enjoy the life, make new friends and Live it to the fullest.

Yesterday was a day to be remember but tomorrow is a day that worth seeking and if you are waiting for morning to come at that very moment, quiet yourself, had plan of the new day because as the sunrises, the smile of the nature will never fails you. You will never had yesterday again, cherish it.

The love I've got year back wasn't what i want or either what she wants. Yesterday, it was all yesterday and never would i allow myself to do those stupid things. Never would i allow myself to love someone like her. Never would i allow myself to be endlessly naive. Never would i allow myself to fall the deepest but never climb the highest! To be frank, I'm still so emotional about the past I've experience. Although i put in my best and love, and it's the deepest i ever gave. I had this utterly returns. i can never forget this awful experiences because it's haunting down. To allow and remember what i done wrong and improve on what i can do best. Alright, let's take 2! I'm refreshing the memories.

Leave it behind, Tommy :D

I want a Woman that can make me feel;
When I'm with you, there's a good memories
When I'm with you, you make the loneliness all just disappeared
When I'm with you, nothing replaces your touch
When I'm with you, you make me feel that we are standing strong in love
When I'm with you, there would be no distance too far
When I'm with you, that makes it feel like home
When I'm with you, it's like a piece of me is missing but you found it
When I'm with you, you make me a better man
When I'm with you, I'll not be dreaming of you because you are here with me
When I'm with you, your love keeps bringing me closer to the truth
When I'm with you, you just make me feel that "never stop believing in us"

I questioned whether time or fate would ever show me a sign of your presence
pursuing forward for this woman.

Im just short of one simple thing...

2009-04-17T00:14:00.004+08:00

So CONTENTED

I am happy today,
Cause i do CHARITY! :D

I feel good after all helping others and the moment you are actually shy to approach strangers; It was the moment that you will remember of the most embarrass part but it had an outcome. i choose a way that i will speak out and SMILE DEEP DEEP :D i got 10 2dollar notes for like an hour! i got 30 to 40 bucks in an hour time.

For my courage, i statue!

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HUMBLE
-is what in need of

i need to be Humble in Court
i need to be Humble in Work
i need to be Humble in Life..

Help me be humble and grow into a better person each day.
Until i called upon your presence :D

'I'M SO SICK OF MY JOB @.@

I made new friends!

When life meet it's end and the date kept in memories over historicial book.

2009-04-09T22:26:00.002+08:00

I may stress in mathematics, i may be stupid, i may be slow, i may be careless and i may be lazy

All the above does not meant that, I MAY BE " a Loser".
Because i have not give up myself! =D

Special Thanks, Luobo (it's Carrot in Chinese) Karen.

It's Good Friday
I pray, i ask and i keep hopes. =)

SEVEN WORDS OF JESUS ON THE CROSSTHE SEVEN WORDS OF JESUS ON THE CROSS

"Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they do." Gospel of Luke 23:34

THE SECOND WORD
"Truly, I say to you, today you will be with me in Paradise." Gospel of Luke 23:43

THE THIRD WORD
"Jesus said to his mother: "Woman, this is your son".
Then he said to the disciple: "This is your mother." Gospel of John 19:26-27
SEVEN WORDS OF JESUS ON THE CROSS

THE FOURTH WORD
"My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" Matthew 27:46 and Mark 15:34

SEVEN WORDS OF JESUS ON THE CROSS

THE FIFTH WORD
"I thirst" Gospel of John 19:28

THE SIXTH WORD
When Jesus had received the wine, he said, "It is finished";
and he bowed his head and handed over the spirit. Gospel of John 19:30

THE SEVENTH WORD
Jesus cried out in a loud voice,
"Father, into your hands I commend my spirit": Gospel of Luke 23:46

Hello peeps, im back!

2009-04-04T00:03:00.002+08:00

Here you go, a Friendly baby picture to start off the long long post!

have been going on lately with more higher expectation of myself in certain aspects.

Places i expect better result mainly below:
Studies
Skills on Basketball
Self- confidences

"Character is what you know you are, not what others think you are"
- Peter Marshell

I know there are areas that were beyond my limits. Perhaps, let's put it this way. The Most Important thing to remember is that we all live too close to ourselves. In trying to convince others of our ideas, we need to focus more on what THEY want than on what we want.

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In life, there are many stages to go through. Even though, one were meet their own "dead-line" but that does not means, "Let's wait upon our death" Every minutes, Second and hour just not for you only hence the world would not have stop if you're gonna die tomorrow.

When we're young, our hands can only do this little things;
When we're getting older, our hands can only do this much things?
When we're OLD, what can your hand does best for you?,
(Having them on the arm chair? Eat, rest, sit and wait upon death?)

If it will only give you 20 years younger! What will you do with that pair of hands?
-My question to readers is the above.

But i believe,

Do not let your hand stop you from moving where you want to go. It's not about your physical weak. It's more to you are "mentally" weak. Those pair of hand will only stop you from moving to the spot you long wished for. Reveal them, never a lift your hand can cover your eyes with it.

As it have been told,
" the secret to success is to stop listening to
the "experts" and rely on your own EYES and EARS"

However, when you does find out that, "Hey, Tommy was right and look My fingers are smiling back at me"

Cherish life, don't get discourage and mad about everything.

Get Smart! people

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My "Action" Fanatics

(Left) Shag o,neal Vs Andrew Bynum (right)

somthing just got in the ways

2009-03-28T00:23:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the temper on court
Sorry for been not in my effort
Sorry for the shouting on court
Sorry for my mistakes

Recently, things kept me think and thinking. To a extend that i won't want to bother so much and the way studies got me. I got stress up cause i don't know this and that.

Things just go OMG
and please
OH MY GOD!
=)

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Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Recent;ly have not been good

2009-03-26T00:22:00.002+08:00

Just got salary and the moment i look upon it, my eyes go rolling! i work yet literally i get only this amount. the worse thing is i got to pay for bills. 2 weeks of suffer! I can Pull through. Just have to keep saving for poly!

It may be tough, hence without toughness there will not be any left of me.
The solution for me: Strike and endurance till the last breathe.

Training;
I sprained my ankle (again @.@) and i thought i can still run, fall in back on the base line for full court sprint and the moment whisper blown. Oh my God, i suppose to burst off and sprint but what i done was burst off, tripped and knee lock. Knee lock is like a jet on the knee.
Off i go seated down at a corner.
A New School Life awaiting
Poly is coming towards me and entering my life. Although i haven't start on the Online Preparation mathematics Lesson but i can feel the pressure.

Financial, guidance on studies and time.
I NEED THE ABOVE! SO MUCH

i need a Finger that lifted up my whole hand

With my breathe, i will breath for succeed

i don't bother much

2009-03-20T02:36:00.002+08:00

Recently, I've got a headache easily and badly.

My knee is hurting me, mainly i guessed is because my body weight instead of getting old. Although, every time i grumpy about "I'm getting old!" damn it.

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Recently, things are still not getting better. Perhaps it's got to be 1 year soon ever since i CRUSHED into a "Fakeshit Wall". I was just to naive to trust. Anyway, things had happened so i won't bothered much because it's only to build up another problems in my life. Over the time, things won't be the same as people thought of who exactly you are.

However, you do know who you are, how have you been and what kind of beast you are forming into. If things will going to change it can't change just like that, it's going to start from the bottom of your heart.

Simplify, i can't be bothered much.
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"this person".

Okay, she is nice after all and she held my hand. okay, I'm been tired and can't be bothered about things have been happening recently but i just got "BLANK" perhaps a little emotional but "this lady" she holds my hand although we are just friend but i feel the concern.

It's a good feeling whereby a man is tired of everything around and been held to himself. At the right timing just now and when she holds me, i felt good you see. WE HOLD! yes, but we are friends only. There's a limit for us..

a hold in both hands does made a perfect feelings.

I hope the next one that passerby my life again won't be like those previous of mine.

onward

2009-03-18T00:12:00.002+08:00

I should be a worry-free person but look it's so WORRIED. Recently have been struggling a lot in life and i got what i strike for in studies but now a further big step and i never knew the step i gonna take was so so cost-ty. i want go ECP where i used to have trip down just to see the creator makes the sun shines and the ocean blue. Something it's best been alone there but my situation now, best to go along with friend and i shall make a trip down there! laughed.

smile =)

maybe i had enough of waiting for yr so called Plan. tell me how long then it will appear
God, answer me. Perhaps is the patience in me that is running out but the faith is holding.

A lot of stuff have been going through my mind. especially school, like such as mathematics and financial in school. I don't know whether i can cope the 1000+ school fees or not. I had a dream last night and it was that my school fees paid by CPF was rejected. can you imagine i have been thinking through it till DREAM fools on me too!

My worries got me thinking, my thinking caught me seeking, my seeking caught me revealing, the revealed leave me worrying.

If i had a girlfriend, it does meant i getting for the sake of fooling around or hanky panky.
i will just get fed up a little and maybe i treat it as a "fucking" jokes.
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thing haven't been quite good about my work.
till then, I'm still considering of that places, it's like from fun to not that fun anymore? haha, can you believe that each and everyday you have to go down just for the sake of money. What used to be is going down for friends!

Andy then he leaves,
Li Sze then she goes,
Yin hui then she went,
Iris then she runs, (hahaha)
and there are many more.

SShhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
(Only Azizah was there "still", haha. Oh yeah, she was there when i first joined! and we went for CET, on the way there at MRT, walking down the stairs and she literally Sprained her ankle! and i was there laughing instead of helping her! PEAK HOURS OKAY!?!?!? hahaha... I'm a MotherFooker! laughed. TILL NOW, the incident happened and we still DISCUSSING ABOUT IT!! 3 years back!! )

it's not been sensitive but i know the working abilities i had currently. I can't blame for things that have changed. What happens to today's pizza hut, i just got less to speak about it. Over the time, changes must be made and blameless on anybody. However, the motivation i used to have compare against these days, it can't be compared anymore. The laughter, the BUSY-ieszzz, the challenge and the self-satisfy wasn't there anymore or rather it used to be.

Yeah, you are right with what's on your mind. I might say of leaving but when am i going to leave? Laughed, i believe there's people does want me to leave. To be honest, LAUGHED! that will be a question whereby there will be an answer. It's only matter of time, sooner / later.

One step by a time, till then thou shall have an answer

still on the hit of the ground

2009-03-10T16:16:00.002+08:00

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Left 4 Dead

Nice game

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Recently,

life haven't been that well, lots of thing unsettle.

I thought i was not one of the "Financial Crisis Affectations" but i was! Everything was planned and i hope it goes well. Even my PSP have to pay for my debt. When things are getting out of hands, i meant REALLY that serious and you determine not to handy a penny out of your family pockets. This is the only thing left to do is to sell yr capital at a very low prices.

Poly is coming,
everything is calculated. you have to down-payment a laptop, so far the average i asked is S$1700! Oh my God, you know it's literally OH MY GOD! everything now not yet done, I have not defer for NS. if my family can't support and go through this poly life im gonna have, Just too bad got to go NS first. still thinking what's benefit me and my family best.

2 jobs, sleepless night and been so hard-striking for extra cash, not everybody knows how i have spend through it but just do it. Tried? sorry, want money no tired. it's stated, "Do whatever it takes"

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Whatever life's might have gone through, it might be the same problems you are having each day. When you wake up, just tell yourself, it's another day for actions, for your own life, for your love one and no matter what, it's only 24hours to the next days. Every second is tickling, so if it is like that way and you missed it. It's very sad, so why not just smile through.

Literally, JUST SMILE.

you may be the "extras" but you never be the most that sad. Eventhough life kept you alone out from the world, there is a purpose for been what it takes to be where you are and to where you are, it going to be a start to where you used to be from. Look up, never heads down and SMILE because these are moments i thank God that what i am alive for since the days every prayer have been answered.

sry people

2009-03-08T00:31:00.002+08:00

my computer is down.. i'll not update in a month.. but whatever it is

im very stress now

i need
WINDOW XP CD KEY

as i do not want to waste money buy one. see if anybody can help

SAME GOES TO PRAYERs. i need it...

thanks alot

1 week of fun

2009-03-02T22:51:00.004+08:00

1 week of enjoyment Part 1

today's post would be a long one trust me. I hope readers will open your eyes and read every single little things because i believe there are people out there, whom i put a smile on their faces. =)

my oldies friend.

@ krangi crossover

@ The cathay
Watching "My Bloody Valentine 3D"
this is the kuku! laughed

, jin koon the Joon Koon MRT's owner

@ Clementi K-Box

Almost every night we went out. Dirty jokes, joking insults, laughter and smile. Back then on our school days, from a boy who had nothing but now he had something.

Everybody have their goals in life, nothing gonna matter the most if you are telling me,
"i'll put my helmet back down, left my ammo at the back just to cover my soul mate back."

have been driving around Singapore and the sensation of having a car is getting low. That's good you see, so i won't always think of having a car. Just go Rent! laughed

Love Sickness

On the way back to home i was alone, driving carefully and i heard this song from FM. i do not know why, my emotion starts to activate. i remembered what happen back months ago, i actually broke down while driving and i took the wrong way to U-turn back to AYE.

i got so emotional out of sudden. Why am i so naive to believe and given everything. Never i did love someone so deeply but it turns out the hell. Whatever it is, it have been so long the incident happens. What changes myself, are going soon to change back to what he had used to be. i know i will pull through without any help.

Because my inner says; "You can, Tommy"

About woman,
haha a stupid KU niah asked me (Victory.Own.Neverland) ,

What type of woman you want?
it meant to be a serious one but i was jokingly answering back.

someone who is so pretty enough to make my face red
someone who is so detail and gentle about their partner enough to make my heart melted
someone who is so clever and patience enough to make me feel so touched
and most importnatly,
someone who is so naughty and nasty enough to make me go WOaaaaaaaW!

Laughed, everybody laughed. I saw those smile and i feel so happy to entertain them.

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Genting soon

25, 26 ,27 March

With this man! laughed!

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Special Thanks

Thank Mr. Fiat Grande for giving me a safe ride and even though i risk my life speeding and testing your abilities i have great time using you and i hope future i can still have you (or a better one) laughed. You accompanied me through out my birthday and days. Without you, i wouldn't satisfy myself of what i want to have for this birthday. Thank you!

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believe.

2009-02-23T01:21:00.002+08:00

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Today's discovery

I believe i can
I believe i will
I believe i know my dreams are real
I believe i'll stand
I believe i'll dance
I believe i'll grow real soon
That is what i do believe

today's quote:
You can reach your goals just talk to your soul and say you believe "in the above".

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I'm gaining weight instead of losing weight.
i can no longer jump that HIGH.

Give me 4 months. the strength i need will be back.
Training, when ever i heard training.
my mood go. BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pizza Huts peeps.
take note:
27 Feb 2009
Friday, 6pm @ East Coast Park's Pit 16
I'll reach there around 4pm*

i do not know why

2009-02-22T02:12:00.002+08:00

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Run, Rest and Run again

( I'm keeping this short so hope you, readers got it)
- this is what i was thought and experienced it before

1.
People have dreams. Dream are meant to be made by people who and pursue the unexpected and beyond their limits. Through Dream and determination, Nothing is impossible.

Is it true? How about this, Have you guys heard about "The highest you climb and you will fall the deepest". i believe mostly people heard of it. In life, not everybody get what they wants. Just like what you given was right but the back you found out, "Hey, i wasn't on your contact list". Come on, do not tell me, " Hey, i don't mind" and kind of things, i will only think its rubbish.

A boy chasing after Seagulls. it's just like his naive to think that HE CAN actually caught one of them but he could not! Look, He tried once, twice and on further.

2.
The highest you climb and climb, you will get tired.
The fact is that the higher you climb the environment changes. So why not stop and rest, look around and for your information,

A picture is what you can see but from different angles, you see different views.

Just like running, you get tired. You will get tired of how people treats you, and sort of. It can be that he/she doesn't care much about your presence around them. Stop and see, what things are going on and then.........

3.
take a sprint,

Faster and faster till you stop again. because you just break through a strong wall.

Facing a giant in life is something you should face sooner or later.

I know a lot of things going on recently, keeping it to myself but human does have their limits. Today's morel of the facts is that, there will be changes. People replacing one another, One's abilities and many.

i know my job aspects outcome, so it's sooner or later. When things happen, it always has their reasons. =)
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Today,

it have been quite a Surprising days and back to the old days. Speaking about the previous relationship, go me down a lot. i lost motivations and changes like i don't care who are you, whatever my mind and the words come in my mind, it's speak out loud.

thins changes quite much after that relationship i had, failure i saw, empathy i see and she was in my thoughts. Get a life son anyway. i have learn to hide the quality i used to hold and it becomes fading away.

Suddenly everything has changed and do you know what it's like to feel so in the dark about to dream about a life where you're the shining star. Even though it seems like it's too far away that makes me have to believe in myself. there is something in me still, keeping the lowest profile who i used to be.

Today's post can song bored but just blogging about anything? laughed, we'll see.. stay tuned.

My Horoscope says:
Just because you had some extremely weird dreams last night doesn't mean you should spend the whole today trying to make sense of them. What's the point? Sometimes, odd dreams are just odd -- there are no hidden meanings, no secrets to uncover. They're just your brain getting some exercise while you sleep. Don't waste time today trying to figure out your dreams. You'll have new dreams tonight, and whatever confused you before will be a distant memory.

Alamak misunderstanding.

2009-02-20T00:38:00.008+08:00

Music Video of the day! =)

Superhuman (Official Music Video ) HQ - Chris Brown ft. Keri Hilson

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When there are work undone in your room, look around and it's stated "I'm Busy".
I meant for people who don't know me, when it means step back the line and stopping pushing the button. I meant it. I'm a "show no faces to others" guy. I can joke, i Guarantee i can take jokes but there are times to play and serious.

I hope that whoever girlfriend. I'm sorry for been that fierce, if it does hurt you, just too bad.

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Meet out with Ex-Secondary School friend.

Thanks for allowing me to have Junhao's car. haha

We're at Kranji Battle Site

Had lots of fun, of cause! @ K Box

Johann

JH & HQ

Paul

WE!!!!!!!!!

ROX & YL

My Scandal (Just been funny alright!)

The pictures itself should have do the talking.
We have fun! =)
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Omgoodness, Somebody in hut says i have girlfriend. I don't have alright! Ass holessss..
Speaking about pizza hut.

i know my wrongs, i know my strength, i know my unreasonable, i know it all.
see with eye of my own, when thing changes.

2005 - 2009 - till date. bad or good been through it all.

there are times for everything, people in and out and try asking, "when's your turn"

i want you to go bed because i can't sleep

2009-02-17T01:18:00.002+08:00

OMG, my Birthday week is full of BBQ! Friday with client then Sat 28Feb with Ballers. Sunday actual day, my blood clique and my Family of cause!

I want to have Fun of cause! lots of them too and for that i went to rent car, laughed! Just to pamper myself! Anbody want go night life or chill out during 26 Feb to 2 march! Dial my hotline.

Book me now

I do not ask for much this year. All i ask seriously is for Peace. laughed
Speaking about peace:

“These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

How about this, can i ask for Sun flower.

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BASKETBALL

Oh my God!Andrew Bynum..
i bet he will be in the all star game if his not Injured. Stupid Kobe!

i bet he block it down.

HAHA! i found someone who watch basketball but i think she knows nothing about it. Jocelyn! HAHA she like chris bosh. Laughed. I think that guy is a peanut for Paul Gasol.
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that Valentine had Passed.

Relationship.

if it's true then tell me about it, people.
There you go try this out and check if it's true enough for you.
Love Test
Are you Sweet or a Jerk, check yourself out at Love-Sessions Love Test

My result

Dear tommy,
You are a person who needs a partner who is responsible financially with an education, who will share responsibilities with you, support you emotionally and keep up with the heat and romance. Effort is a big thing for you and you need to see efforts being made by your partner often. Lack of efforts makes you feel like you may not be worth it in your partner's eyes and can cause problems in your relationship. Just remember that your partner can only do what he/she knows and cannot read your mind. If your partner is investing effort, but not quire as much as you would like, or not in a way that makes you feel special, just talk to him/her. Let your partner know that you love him/her and appreciate that he/she does for you, but also need and desire more. Then tell him/her what those needs and desires are. Open and honest communication with your partner will help your relationship grow into a more close and loving one. Understanding and caring about each other needs is key to making a relationship work.

Alright i find it quite true anyway.. EFFORTS..

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I can't sleep....

I was inviting, her into my heart but she was out riding in some other man's car. When she was my night time and thought I was her star. Now guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong about it and it won't take long for me to move on. So please don't worry bout me I'm fine and the limit is i'm only gonna play the fool one time. Trust me when I say that I'll be ok

2009-02-16T00:45:00.001+08:00

AHAAHHHHHHHHHH.. birthday coming........................

A Sunflower? PLLLLLLLLLEEEEEEASSSSSSSEEEEEEEE

Hello gigly rondo!

2009-02-14T13:08:00.002+08:00

happy valentine's day!
so special that it's gonna be just another day for me.

on that special days when it strike 12, we had a prank on the almost new couple? or never a couple. Can't stop laughing. Whatever it is, haha happy valentine's day!

Looking for a temporary job as Dispatch/Delivery Driver. if there is any lobang, contact me!

Holidays are over soon! REAL soon!

MY STAR IS INJURED!

ANDREW BYNUM!!

Ligament strained! 8 -12 weeks of recovery. No AB17 on court! OMG

I'd rather be anything but ordinary!

Right time to say goodbye and hello again.

2009-02-08T13:20:00.004+08:00

Hey readers, I'm back with my update. It have been long since the last time i updated, so i will love to start who with this baby!

PEEK-A-BOO

for the 20 days Un-blog,
Life goes on the same, just that i had more than enough rest till i'm very lazy to exercise and grow fatter! haha i promise you the next time whoever saw me, I'm fatter!

Have been working of cause, what's about work i prefer not to say it out.
- There are masked people around in these world, take it and leave it. no point grumble on them.

Movies:
Alright during these holidays i have been viewing movies and NBA
(1)Movies
- The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
- Ink Heart
- Ip Man
- Transporter 3
- The bourne Ultimatum 2008
- The Great Raid 2006
- Saw 1

NBA
i have been watching theirs, play and defense for a study of mine in basketball
and i come out with this 3 years pro man.

He is my Star:

Andrew Bynum

Night life,
have been hanging out late recently with different clique.
Super at west coast? party at Labrador? drinking at clarke? Mess Party at NTUC CS chalet? Sunrise at ECP?

haha, Congrats Penghock, Junhao and luck for roxana. They had their License!
too bad, i'm the first to get! 1st attempt!!!!! Giggly Laughed

What if this baby was me?! saying this
"HEHE, I GOT MY DRIVING LICENSE FIRST!"
hahahahahahahhahahaha~~~~~~~

Draft plan for tomorrow:
Tomorrow admission for Singapore Poly than maybe going back to BB ite collect 150 and go hang out with yvonne at queensway.

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12 ways to turn a bad day into a better one!

1. Play with kids.

I dare you.

2. Give someone a compliment.

Not a fake one, but take the time to see something that someone else is doing well.

3. Sing in your car.

And sing as loud as you can. Have you ever noticed how hard it is to frown while you are singing?

4. Read Philippians 4.

And while you are at it, just think about where Paul was while he was writing it.

5. Bake your favorite kind of cookies.

Then eat some.

6. Count your blessings.

I mean it. Start a list of all the things you are thankful for. Write until you can’t write anymore. Staple it to the wall.

7. Watch people.

Go find a crowded public area, sit down and watch. Allow yourself to wonder what he ate for breakfast, or what her name is, or where he bought that shirt.

8. Do something for someone you love.

Do the dishes for your wife, take your neice out for ice cream, take your mom to Starbucks for a coffee.

9. Pray.

It’s #9 because you expected it to be #1. What could be more encouraging that talking to the Creator of the universe?

10. Think of the most encouraging person you know and call them.

But don’t complain. Refrain from telling them how bad your day is and focus on making their day better.

11. Write a letter.

A good old-fashioned paper and ink letter. Bonus: write it to someone who has impacted your life and thank them and let them know how much you appreciate their role/impact in your life.

12. Remember the truth.

That God causes all things to work together for GOOD

Romas 8:28

And we know that God cause all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.

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Valentine is Coming, have a match on 7.30pm that day.
Gonna be busy so BOOK ME FIRST!, hahaha!

How is wish she is here with me for valentine.

Birth Name:
Selena Marie Gomez
Birth Date:
July 22, 1992
Birth Place:
New York City, NY
Occupation:
Actress / Singer
Relationship Status:
Single

keep dreaming, tommy

"WHAT YOU LOOKING AT!!!!!!!!!!!!"

passion

2009-01-19T00:02:00.005+08:00

BBAXN
today's match was walked over. Opponent didn't turn up instead only 1 person.
so consider today waste time and headed to west Coast CC to play ball.
at least there is this 2m height man to play with not bad.

Got one of them said:
"Your box out good ar"

The definition of Box out is that Guarding the player behind you and grab down the rebound.

I like this anywhere. Saw the arm? BIG!

I'm too tired people. so goodnights!

时间过了, 走了爱情面临选择

2009-01-15T00:40:00.002+08:00

can someone do wakes me up to cook my breakfast. 845am? Any kind soul out there.
Anyway, i am so sick of Pizza Hut's meal but mine,;

Tommy's Pasta, specially for woman 16 - 20 age group

Do order it, only at Jurong Point Pizza hut and Serving it at a price of *$50
*Terms and condition
- you must look like a super model
- A kiss on my cheek
- you must wear a dress.

Just for laughs!

Chinese New Year 2009 - Big disaster!
Mummy was home, cleaning and packing for CNY. The thing is i don't plan to go anywhere but only come out my spare time for aunty sus; von's mother. Thous shall not break promise but really i don't feel like going anywhere because it is just another day or maybe perhaps more money! laughed!

Friends: "whats on your planner on CNY?"
Me: "working"

haha, don't say i no life.

Depressed from O level result,

i have lots of friend that done badly. the worse 34, the best i think is 19.

SO,
no matter what i have been, effort have made. Target might not have reached but i say:

"Target is for a human to push themselves toward it. How about when it have fail to meet it? Lower down the standards? No, onwards, onwards and onwards. Further target and work harder and hardcorly!"

Sometimes i believe, Where ever you are now and on next. There is always a purpose in it.
God's purpose i guessed.

i guess too, this might help

“And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.”
- Phil 4:19

Notice the above verse says “ALL.” It doesn’t say “some” or “most,” but it says that "He will meet all of our needs." it doesn’t say how He will meet our needs and I have found from experience the way He does it is often not what I or We can be expected but the bottom line is that God is faithful and He does what He promises.

Done badly?
Juust smile! like he/she does! HAHAHA!

Don't know where to go next after secondary school?
"Casting the whole of your care on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully." 1 Peter 5:7

elaborate:
all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all confess it.

Yes Man

I think not that nice seriously. =X

it's my night that i posted this much
6 months 8 days and 12 hour - brian Mc knight

说好的幸福呢

2009-01-14T00:02:00.002+08:00

I hope i did not miss out the Admission for Singapore Polytechnic.
i pray there is vacancies for Chemical Process Technology in SP. Please.

Morning are with Sylvia.
Roaming around with Hafiz while working
Visit Yinhui and brought the herbal tea for her.

Alright! Take good care people!

For those that with family problems or anything. Just remember, A Smile can take you everywhere you want to go. Through bitter, Sour or Spicy just SMILE. It's so sweet to make a smile for yourself.

Read it if you want, i promise you it's long. Don't laugh on me,
It takes true to be Truthful.

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Don't Doubt God

I asked for help since young. I felt nothing but not recently i found out that God does help me. In the way of sitting in my heart, It's just that whether am i going to make that moves on him. Because the following below is true enough:

"You did not choose Me but I chose you, and appointed you that you would go and bear fruit, and that your fruit would remain, so that whatever you ask of the Father in My name He may give to you."
John 15:16

For an Life time example here:
I pray for a maintaining of GPA 4 this term and i return to study hard again. Unfortunately, it was too late. Everything was so last minute, rushing with time and I was so scare and so stress. I pray, hoping God do helps. Yes he does, Because He says this,:

"Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened."
Matthew 7:7-8

And then,
with all the fears and regret for not putting efforts in the beginning. All the Demoralization, "you're a Slacker". I can even hold up my pride and tell myself, "It's a motivation to Move and move and RUN!" I have tried, but i have failed. I got 3.8, "not that bad" people said. My expectation was High enough but i have no effort in the last term.

I ask myself," Why God never helps?" Instead i got a conclusion that stated "Not he did not help, Is i Give up". Afterward comes along with the following verse,:

No temptation has overtaken you but such as is common to man; and God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will provide the way of escape also, that you may be able to endure it.
I. Corinthians 10: 13

i thought through back then, what was my temptation. A relationship, i ruined it, i banged the wall and woke up in nowhereabout. The thing about that verse(1 Cor 10:13) was no where in this verse does the Bible say that God "won't put more on you than you are able to bear." i find it true enough and i understand it. It's like finally after i break up part of the thing that have been going on through months.

To elaborate more is that,
God is faithful and He will provide a way to come successfully through the temptation without having to be defeated by the temptation.

Believe...

When you asked for something, make sure you work for it, believe in it and thou shall receive. Work hard, pray hard and you got a hardcore.

The End

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a life that we lived.

2009-01-13T00:49:00.002+08:00

1st.
those that does not done well in their "O" Level,

Don't stuck there, move on with the available.There is a reason why thing turns out this way. If you still gonna stand around the "Bads", you're not going anywhere on this planet.

2nd.
i having some family problem here, that need to go on court. Ya, it's have nothing to do with me but my mother. Although i'm speaking on her behalf, while writing the appeals i got to know more about my mother young age. My auntie, uncles even those that committed suicide, everything. It's more to my Grandpa unreasonably offered. Not to further mention anything.

Quite stress for my mother and i felt it. i just gonna make myself free on 2 Feb to arm strong with my mother.

Thanks yvonne for correcting my grammars error in the form.

Mother sadly says, "I may have a bad Childhood. Does not meant that i will give you, my sons, a bad childhood". I was like WOAH!, Solid impact. Cause I easily feel the soul, the needs and the touch from head to toe. Anyway, Speak less back then.

God bless them.

3rd.

Story of a Motherly Love,

a son who once said to his mother, "Get out of my life", "I hate you", "I want my freedom", "You CHEE BYE" and still this mother loves him. She broke down wondering why? how? and even want to clear her hands of him. She gives herself a push; a chance. She still does the thing that help and give best to her son.

through many incident and tough roads ahead

One day, her son become more sensible, days after days. A boy who turns off, get back to his mother as a man. He stands on his own. Without saying sorry because he had realised action does speak more than words. Year past, broken relationship got this gentleman down and again he had realised. His mother was there to hold his hands.

When everyone's dreaming of a better life in this world that was divided by fear. We've got to believe that there's a reason we're here. Definately because these are the days worth living, these are the years we're given and these are the moments. These are the times so let's make the best out of our lives. when seeking the truth all around our faith can be broken and our hands can be bound but get that in mind, open our hearts and fill up the emptiness. With nothing to stop us.

Tell me, is it not worth the risk?

The End

You can be 18 years old who lives a single parent life, you can be 26 years old living in the olden memories but be it 18 or 26. The mother had loved the sons for that years long.

Based on true story by:
tommy

Well, actually parents does love thier children, be it did or never. they once does it.

It's our fate.

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